What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us. Ralph Waldo Emerson
It's been here like an echo between my space and time....this feeling that I have...it will stay until I can't hold it anymore, it follows me.....ready to greet me in the day, and surround me at night...time doesn't seem to erase.......
A lot of activities yesterday in our household. Besides the cooking of Tom in the oven we enjoyed spending time together as a family. Had a pool tournament and lost some money. Today I think I won't gamble as much as 5 bucks a game like yesterday! lol We watched the "Hulk" movie together and apparently that consisted of beating up the blown up Hulk that Brian owns. Is that a guy thing?? The rubik's cube was done 3 times from my engineer husband who impressed the kids each time. How did he have so much time on his hands ?? Today we will fight the crowds at the malls as is tradition....I want to change that, but it seems my daughter is against it. I will have to look at it as quality time with her instead of quality time with a zillion of other people!
This day inspires thoughts of so many things and I wonder how I will ever bring this to clarity. I feel as though being grateful is such small words to say for such a life that I have. My surroundings seem to brighten with every day and my excitement never ceases to end. To have all of this and realize the impact can only enhance my world for the better.
Today I will give thanks for every breath that goes through me...for it is in this time that my senses are attuned to all things around me....and that in turn makes me smile. :)
You see things; and you say, "Why?" But I dream things that never where; and I say, "Why not?" George Bernard Shaw
Sometimes my dreams are so vivid that it is almost as though it really happened in my daily life. I wake up compelled to figure things out and think of why I would possibly dream what I do. Often I feel that it is a reflection of my true inner feelings....feelings that are kept inside for safe keeping. Feelings that if brought out would only complicate my own idenity.
Kelly and I went to the John Mayer concert last night at the Phillips Arena in Atlanta. He put on a great concert and played for 2 1/2 hours! The place was packed, the people were excited and the music was awesome. The picture above was taken just before we left as we were filled with anticipation of having a good time.
"Why should we refuse happiness this hour gives us, because some other hour might take it away?" John Hobbes
Sometimes I am speechless with the happenings in my life... I am captivated and not sure which way to turn...it's presence still lingers when I am alone...
I would be lost if I looked into those eyes...so I sit and I glance away. He smiles and grabs me with his eyes and I know things will never be the same. How sweet it must feel to have this each day...how warm it would make me feel. So I sit and I glance and wonder each time if I dare feel this once again...
"A loving person lives in a loving world. A hostile person lives in a hostile world. Everyone you meet is your mirror." Ken Keyes Jr. , Handbook of Higher Consciousness
My son will be visiting this weekend! It's been a month since he's been home and I will have to say I can't wait. His birthday is soon and he will be 19. Seems like just yesterday that we were in this picture booth taking candid shots. We looked like kids ourselves!
Received another letter from the IRS yesterday. Apparently it wasn't over after we paid thousands more like they asked. Seems that we have a refund of .95 to be exact.!? They won't mail the refund unless we ask for it... that is a letter with a .37 stamp on it just to get .95. Are they ridiculous or what? Maybe they should have figured the exact amount at the beginning when they came after it! lol
"No one knows what it's like to the bad man, to be the sad man, behind blue eyes....
My mind races as to what I have to get done today....I need to go walking to put all this in order. The sun is shining brightly and it will keep me smiling once again through the day. Maybe shuffling my tasks will create a whimsical day....yes, I think I will go against the norm...
......But my dreams, they aren't as empty, as my conscience seems to be...No one knows what it's like to feel these feelings, like I do...."
"Don't be afraid to give your best to what seemingly are small jobs. Every time you conquer one it makes you that much stronger. If you do the little jobs well, the big ones will take care of themselves." Dale Carnegie
Sometimes I need to read this often to make what I do seem worthwhile. And I wonder why there is doubt....but I have the confidence to overcome... confidence that is quiet....calmly persistent and effective. It has the strength to be kind,and the courage to be truthful. It is the result of how I choose to live my life. So why then do I need to read this often?.......
A gorgeous weekend this was! I spent hours paddling my canoe in tranquillity at the lake. The sunset was breathtaking....... I arose 6:45am for a sole trip to capture the sunrise and fell upon the most peaceful time spent on the lake. The water was still, the fog laid low and the quiet was just right.
"True silence is the rest of the mind, it is to the spirit what sleep is to the body, nourisment and refreshment" William Penn
Have great news...the cyst on my ovary is gone! They have been tracking this since spring. Yesterday I had another cervical ultrasound and it revealed those results. I am very grateful that I went for a second opinion since they wanted to remove it and my ovary last month. They had thought it was a type that wasn't functional, which would then mean suspicious contents....life has been good to me. :)
"The time to pray is not when your in a tight spot but just as soon as we get out of it. " Josh Billings
It's intriguing how certain people enter our life and bring with them a whisper of fresh air. We hold on to that air and everything seems brighter for some reason.....and then we wait for that time for those to enter again and bring that energy that feels so good.
My mind goes weary without you by my side. Just the touch of your skin sets my heart on fire - and the feeling of your kisses sends chills up my spine. I don't know how I survived without you before this - for everything I live for is for you.......with you by my side nothing can go wrong. You have a place in my heart which keeps me going - and living - and enjoying - and seeing life as beautiful in times of sorrow or happiness - and loving, which is the greatest gift of all you gave to me. You offered yourself to me as a whole and set upon me a spell that blinds everything but you.
Carol - Written 2 months after our wedding.
What a nice day it is outside. I had beautiful skies to look at as I did my morning walk. With this cooler weather the sky has been so clear. I've had the fireplace on the past two days and I love the cozy feeling. Halloween is this week and I look forward to all the little ones running from house to house with a big smile on their faces. A day that brings back good memories.
"I shut my eyes in order to see." Paul Gauguin
We went to the musical production of Frank Sinatra's life last night at the Canton Theatre. First, dinner was at a coffee shop that was unique and set up with a live band to play later in the evening. The musical was great with three entertainers singing his songs through his life story. The reception after was a catered event of sweets and drinks. I will have to say I had one too many kahlua and creames. I'm sure feeling it today! lol
Inadequacies in one's life can only be damaging to your self exteem if you let it. Why then do we take something that is said in jest and take it to heart? Why would certain things stand out that people say when you are overwhelmingly positive about most aspects in your life? Shrug it off?...yes...we will only feel inferior if we let ourselves.
