From my family to yours....May you celebrate this holiday season with joy in your home, peace in your world, and love in your heart. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!
Brian, Kelly, Carol, Dave, Daniel and Dave
I am at a lose for words. What I feel sometimes is overwhelming. I have been the ear and shoulder for my mother for the past six years since my sister passed away. I sit and listen...for it is all that I can do now. I don't know how she feels loosing a child, but the ongoing pain that I hear in her voice is enough to know that I shouldn't have any complaints in my life on minuscule things. I fight to dig myself out of the emotions each time she talks with me of this. It will come out of the blue like yesterday and hit me like a brick wall. She now is following a class action lawsuit of similiar origin of the doctor that misdiagnosed my sister and has begun the process of writing letters in the effort to bring justice...or is it peace within herself. My mother now wants my response and feelings on it....
I shouldn't tell her that I feel she should let go....it is not my right....I want her to never forget, but learn to stay positive for the surviving members of our family...I want her to put her energy in another direction....these feeling that I have will go unheard, for how can I tell her to do nothing?
I will continue to listen ...continue to keep it to myself...and hope that one day peace will replace the hurt that persists within her.
"Never deprive someone of hope, it might be all they have." H. Jackson Brown Jr.
In the throes of indecision, a deep, inner voice will whisper an answer. Lynne Ames from Easy Answers to Life's Hard Questions
Today I found myself amused by my surroundings. At times I laughed with gusto... and other times I was searching for answers to questions that were asked of me. Though the smile never quite left my face I found myself wondering why things happen as they do. Is it just being at the right place at the right time....or do we bring certain energy towards us?
Sometimes I feel as if I'm pulled in all directions and everyone has just one more thing to ask of me....it gets to the point where all I can do is sit and smile. This is when my patience kicks in and I learn to endure without complaining. I will finish each day and be done with it. If I am lucky, I will have another opportunity the very next day to deal with things all over again.... maybe with a new view that will make things seem easier. In the meantime....I need a break!!!!! lol
"Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself and know that everything in this life has a purpose." Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
True silence is something that rests in all of us and is mixed with the realization that our life is ever-changing in our purpose of being here. The impact of each person that passes through our life touches that silence within us and forms a new perception. We take that impression, add it to our existing thoughts and learn that life has more reason of living than ever before. How lucky we are to realize this in our daily endevors. We are our silence within.
I just awoke from spending my Friday evening sleeping in front of the fireplace. The warmth of the fire encircled me like a blanket and all I could hear was the intoxicating sound of the crackling wood. I lay there mesmerized by the comfort but alone in my surroundings, for the house was quiet. The light from the flames bounced against the walls and shown brightly just for me.....I should have stayed there all night.....
Did you ever have one of those days when things just feel good? Where everything looks brighter.... and thoughts run rapid....but every bright corner is filled with good feelings of calm? A day when it seems like you open your eyes for the first time...and everything in return catches our awareness?
This was one of those days. :)
It is not necessary to change. Survival is not mandatory. Edward Demming, Management consultant
Here's Dave this past Sunday on his 19th birthday. Where has the time gone? Seemed like yesterday that he was learning to ride his bike and now he's grown and in college! Change....it's inevitable....